I have another one more week and right now i cant really think much except looking for ppl to share ideas with me. I'm not good in anything except for reading and studying. I hope that the special day would turn out well although i use a short time to think bout it. I'm really hoping that he is a happy person with all he's buddies and a good job for year 2009 :) May god bless him with lots of happiness and prosperities...
Right now all i can think of is what should i get him??Nikki gave me lots of ideas and now with that i still need to find the perfect gift. Actually im gonna give him 2 gifts but not many ppl will know bout it. Its my dream to give him this special gift but i have many objections from the ppl im close with. Everyone thinks its a bad idea but i think is special. Mayb for now is jus a secret i'll never reveal :) I jus hope he like it and im sorry for giving this present late and i know its not good giving someone a present after the real birthday. So im gonna give him 2 kind of presents :)
Thursday, December 25, 2008
Monday, December 15, 2008
haPPy Day :)
I'm so happy that i finally recovered from my fever desease and i no longer have to be sick and stay in bed again :) I've been sick for the whole of last week and it was a very terrible feeling for not being able to do anything. Everytime when i wake up i couldn't stand for awhile or even do my own stuff. I need to be in bed 24 hrs but there were times where i force myself to attend classes and my exams i did not study. Luckily i have friends who are rather helpful and they help me got through everything smoothly. I wanna thank someone for really being beside for me for that whole week and I know i gave him alot of trouble and probably there was some misunderstand we have. But everything is fine now and im happy too. Another good news is that someone has found a job that he likes but he is very busy now.
I know that at times it is difficult for us to see each other or even chat with each other because when i'm in school he would be at work and when he's off then he needs he's rest too. Thats very sad because there is so many things i wanna say to him. But i understand that the next day he would need to get up very early in the morning to drive to work and then work long hrs or sometimes work overtime since christmas is so near. I cant wait to see him again and go out to do some shopping. But i cant give him any presents because for now im quite financially tight for the moment. I have some family problems which limits me from using over my budget and if i really go over i might need to fork out my own savings as well.
But one thing good is that it teaches us a lesson not to spend so much. I've told him that no christmas and birthday present because i'm really in no position at all and i'm really sad because i want to get him something. Mayb if its possible i can get him one for he's birthday. After all i think that is more important. For now, i just wish that we could spend time for christmas as its a public holidays but he has work. But he would receive double pay which is also a good news right?He has been financially tight because he couldn't get a job and even this is a part time , it pays better then he's previous job too which is a good thing too. I'm happy that god has answer my prayers. He help me to recover and at the same time give me my wish.... I hope that he gets the offer to stay and i really am hoping he would really consider. It seems that he doesnt wanna continue because the working hours are too long for him but its like that during peak season right?
As for what happen with my family, ill make the story short. My dad is a bad person to me and the only good person is that he can supports the family and we need him to do that if not we would not be able to further our studies at all. Without he's support i dont think i could come this far to continue my degree even if its not a private. And i thank god for that but sometimes things gets out of our control and he is always a jerk and always thinking that we have to bow to him jus because we are using he's money and he always think that we are taking he's money which is so untrue. He doesnt know whats love and what needs to be sacrifice. Only a person knows how to love deserve to gets love by other people. What he needs is jus respect and face only, thats all. Reputation and status is always the top for him and nothing else matters anymore, not even he's own frsh blood.
I know that at times it is difficult for us to see each other or even chat with each other because when i'm in school he would be at work and when he's off then he needs he's rest too. Thats very sad because there is so many things i wanna say to him. But i understand that the next day he would need to get up very early in the morning to drive to work and then work long hrs or sometimes work overtime since christmas is so near. I cant wait to see him again and go out to do some shopping. But i cant give him any presents because for now im quite financially tight for the moment. I have some family problems which limits me from using over my budget and if i really go over i might need to fork out my own savings as well.
But one thing good is that it teaches us a lesson not to spend so much. I've told him that no christmas and birthday present because i'm really in no position at all and i'm really sad because i want to get him something. Mayb if its possible i can get him one for he's birthday. After all i think that is more important. For now, i just wish that we could spend time for christmas as its a public holidays but he has work. But he would receive double pay which is also a good news right?He has been financially tight because he couldn't get a job and even this is a part time , it pays better then he's previous job too which is a good thing too. I'm happy that god has answer my prayers. He help me to recover and at the same time give me my wish.... I hope that he gets the offer to stay and i really am hoping he would really consider. It seems that he doesnt wanna continue because the working hours are too long for him but its like that during peak season right?
As for what happen with my family, ill make the story short. My dad is a bad person to me and the only good person is that he can supports the family and we need him to do that if not we would not be able to further our studies at all. Without he's support i dont think i could come this far to continue my degree even if its not a private. And i thank god for that but sometimes things gets out of our control and he is always a jerk and always thinking that we have to bow to him jus because we are using he's money and he always think that we are taking he's money which is so untrue. He doesnt know whats love and what needs to be sacrifice. Only a person knows how to love deserve to gets love by other people. What he needs is jus respect and face only, thats all. Reputation and status is always the top for him and nothing else matters anymore, not even he's own frsh blood.
Monday, December 8, 2008
A weather so Nice Yet sO Destructive
The weather??hmmm, what i can say about is its nice to experience cold weather everyday but non-stop raining??It would destroy a nice holiday which was suppose to be everyone to enjoy :) My holidays did not turn out so great cause i've so many things running in my mind. Thinking its unfair on the assignment for 2 person to contribute 100% and the other 3?? Whats worst is me being the leader is a much horrible thing. My members got shock when i said i had nothing on the assignment that could help. I hope i wasnt running from something because i was reli trying my very best to come out with something but it all ended all wrong :(
There's reli nothing for me to add on either but one thing im happy is ppl accept me as who i am. Lots of people are not perfect and there's definitely something im not good at tht ppl would seem to notice so i dun care how ppl thought of me. Or what kind of person i am. So im thinking that probably im starting to feel how the other person feel. And is not good to have a grudge on someone u don understand reli well right? Mayb im jus over reacting or probably this is the time im gonna go crazy??haha... i hope im all wrong...
This may also means that i may not do well in my finals as well, so means i gotta reli buck up and start chasing this subject like hell. Probably spend more time with it rather than the others since the lecturer doing this subject is not devoted enough to the student. It shows sheer lazziness in he's attitude. I would prefer a lady taking over he's job right now..Even in class i tried concentarting on he's teaching but what good does it do if he is not capable to explain ?? He's only willingly to give alot of clues but still the end result is not there...
I did make a promise to my parents that i wont fail this sem and i've to gonna make it real and reli happen. Proceeding with 2nd year is my dream for this year since new year is approaching really fast. And soon enough everyone would be busy preparing for finals so i gotta be somewhere ahead above everyone and i may look studious from the outside but like what one of my old fren tells me, it doesnt matter how hard you work but the matter of how u achieve it.... Thats very important...
There's reli nothing for me to add on either but one thing im happy is ppl accept me as who i am. Lots of people are not perfect and there's definitely something im not good at tht ppl would seem to notice so i dun care how ppl thought of me. Or what kind of person i am. So im thinking that probably im starting to feel how the other person feel. And is not good to have a grudge on someone u don understand reli well right? Mayb im jus over reacting or probably this is the time im gonna go crazy??haha... i hope im all wrong...
This may also means that i may not do well in my finals as well, so means i gotta reli buck up and start chasing this subject like hell. Probably spend more time with it rather than the others since the lecturer doing this subject is not devoted enough to the student. It shows sheer lazziness in he's attitude. I would prefer a lady taking over he's job right now..Even in class i tried concentarting on he's teaching but what good does it do if he is not capable to explain ?? He's only willingly to give alot of clues but still the end result is not there...
I did make a promise to my parents that i wont fail this sem and i've to gonna make it real and reli happen. Proceeding with 2nd year is my dream for this year since new year is approaching really fast. And soon enough everyone would be busy preparing for finals so i gotta be somewhere ahead above everyone and i may look studious from the outside but like what one of my old fren tells me, it doesnt matter how hard you work but the matter of how u achieve it.... Thats very important...
Wednesday, December 3, 2008
BluR + coNfuSeD = strEsS
First of all, i dunno why i cannot concentrate in doing my assignments? Probably is because that i worry too much and think that something bad will happen??I need a clue and im reli looking for someone to share my problems.. But i know i must be a strong person and i cannot just fall down infront of everyone. I promised that i'll work hard to get through my 1st year and i must mean it. If i give up now, then im not mentally and emotionally sttong.
Most important is i don't give up until the very last minute but the question is that how i do something that i don't have a clue of? The lecturer and tutor is the same person so its meaningless asking for guidance right? My group members has the same worries that im having right now so i wont bother asking them because this the time where pressure is all on us.
Maybe i should jud try my best and Fri we'll see what is there to come for us??but we are lack of time and is ticking pretty fast.. How can i ever get through this time?I'm so dead meat!! For now, im reli trying my best 2 study and in the same time i hope my own notes is sufficient for me to complete the assignment.. And with gods help i really something miracle will happen for us AAC1!! I'm having mid terms for finance this sat and even that i've not started yet, not until tomorrow. So means that i have less than 24hrs 2 complete this PM assignment..
So far, my beloved is busy working hard and i know he reli try he's best and i'll also try 2 make him more happy until the end of this year because i've prepared a surprise for him next year as he's turning 22 soon :) I cant wait for happy thing to come because its never endless and it doesnt count how much u spend for it but with who u spend with and how u spend it :) Even that i always counted the days we have been together and all the hard things we have gone through. No one can tear us apart as long we have the heart.
Most important is i don't give up until the very last minute but the question is that how i do something that i don't have a clue of? The lecturer and tutor is the same person so its meaningless asking for guidance right? My group members has the same worries that im having right now so i wont bother asking them because this the time where pressure is all on us.
Maybe i should jud try my best and Fri we'll see what is there to come for us??but we are lack of time and is ticking pretty fast.. How can i ever get through this time?I'm so dead meat!! For now, im reli trying my best 2 study and in the same time i hope my own notes is sufficient for me to complete the assignment.. And with gods help i really something miracle will happen for us AAC1!! I'm having mid terms for finance this sat and even that i've not started yet, not until tomorrow. So means that i have less than 24hrs 2 complete this PM assignment..
So far, my beloved is busy working hard and i know he reli try he's best and i'll also try 2 make him more happy until the end of this year because i've prepared a surprise for him next year as he's turning 22 soon :) I cant wait for happy thing to come because its never endless and it doesnt count how much u spend for it but with who u spend with and how u spend it :) Even that i always counted the days we have been together and all the hard things we have gone through. No one can tear us apart as long we have the heart.
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