-13 September 2008-

Exams went pretty hectic today if u ask me about it :) But one thing is for sure, this paper creates pressure and headache because of what it has to cover and what it was expected to test us on.... I hope Miss tan would have a wonderful time marking all our beautiful scripts and not to mention messy too. Especially mine it was terrible but my handwritting i considered it to me still doing fine :)So. all well with that.. Now, the time comes bout talking how we all did>>Yeah, we were talking bout it for almost half hour or more and I know if i dun pass i'll definitely cry on the spot because i was aiming jus a pass now tht i know tht they were some questions i know tht i din do well but the front questions i know i'm able to get through. But as my fwens and I kept talking I was thinking and thinking would it be tht everything i've done in there is all wrong??Oh, NO!! I dont wanna think, for now I'll just move on with my life.
My sister bought nice lunch for me and even bought me my favorite drink and dessert(tau foo fah)... It was nice of her and she also had her exam this morning just that hers ended one hour earlier then mine.. I hope that she would also pass her tax paper too because I did pass that and we always pass or fail the same subject. But we are definitely not twins, don't worry :) We came back early and had our lunch while she was busy watching Legally Blonde 2 and P:s I Love You. To me, she's only trying to avoid from reminding herself that she has 4 more papers to go an. she isn't prepared at all for it. But still I wish her all the best.
My brother on the other hand doesn't want to talk on the phone with me when i called him or mayb he assumes that I've forgotten bout him or was it the promises of next week im coming back home affect he's mood? U know something my dear lil bro?? Ur beloved two sisters are pretty busy and we'll be back very soon to play with you k?Then you can play with us for 2 solid weeks and we could go for a holidays k?That is a real promise from me to you ok? Muakss.. We will never neglect you for whatever reason so please remember that. Right now I'm only feeling anxious in doing up my last revision and doing it once and for all and be done with it. I hope I'll still have the confidence in me to pass this time and I really cant wait to get back home and sleep for whole day!

-i HaTe U!!!-

I had a very terrible day and probably this day would turn pretty bad soon in the future. I had just ruined my hopes and dreams of going overseas to further my studies . I promised my parents i would work my ass up and also promised someone we would work hard together to have a bright future. But.... I had jus ruined with my bare hands. How can I ever face them again?I'm so ashamed of myself and plus I really studies hard for this paper. I even did so much of revision on this subject thinking that I would at least get good grades.
I went to have lunch with my friends after the exams and we chatted stuff bout exams again!! Making me think about it really makes me go crazy so much more. I know i should not add pressure to myself. I promise my mom i would try my best with guiding my sis along the way knowing that she also cannot take it anymore. It's not easy handling 8 subjects when u have so little time to finish revision in time. I understand how she feel because I was in her shoes once. And i promise myself I wont let myself suffer like that anymore.
Now I have no choice but to leave all this worries behind and look forward to aim for other subjects. No use being sad on just that particular subject which you have no confident in it right?I wish all the best to the others sitting for examinations this Saturday, and hope that everyone pass well. I don't think they would have problem with this paper because its almost calculations. I am only much worried of myself because I'm not good in everything.